Thursday, 30 July 2009
Monday, 27 July 2009
follow the blob.
hallo hallo.
it is i, lady buddha (or rather; lady kitchen god).
because i sit leaning back in those pictures, the stomach still doesn't look that big, so here is a picture of the stomach standing up!
i have been utterly exhausted with the energy levels of a doped up sloth! i sleep, sleep, sleep (sometimes 12 hours a day) and eat and sit and do little else than watch tv shows and make some art here and there. walking merely the smallest distances means i need yet another sleep and moving about/ around in bed is extremely cumbersome and rather hilarious.
so, needless to say; the baby is nearly ready to come out! on monday, i'll be 37 weeks, which means the baby will be full term. if he's born any day after monday he is not considered pre-term. yay. he could come any day now, although most first babies come after 40 weeks, so if that's the case, it's at least another 3 weeks to go.
i'm hoping he'll come a bit early (if he's ready for that), i like the idea he might be born on either the 7th, 8th or 9th of august, as his bday would then be: 07.08.09 or 08.08.09 or 09.08.09, i like auspicious number formations that way. ha ha. but any date and him being healthy and happy is fine by me, obviously.
i have another obstetrician appt tomorrow and they'll check if his head is engaging yet. i'm a bit worried, because if he's not lying head down, he might need to be moved manually which isn't a pleasant experience. been trying to do all sorts of exercises to get him in the correct position, but dunno what he's doing. my midwife said i have quite a lot of amniotic fluid which means he can more easily move about which at this point i don't really want him to do, just head down he should stay now to make labour most comfortable & shorter. oh well, we'll have to see tomorrow and decide from there on.
so, absolutely no energy for anything, but i still have a few art projects planned and i will muster up the energy! i'm hoping to do 2 more art vids for youtube before baby comes (1 ATC related, the other the house shrine) and i have a new piece of wood, we found on the streets i want to paint on. so, gonna try to do that.
also, though it's all just tired tired tired, i mustered up the energy to make indian food tonight! i hardly ever cook 'properly', i'm the kind of person that slaps a dish together in 10 minutes. i never work off recipes or whatever, but really wanted to try and do some proper indian food and it went well! andy liked it, me too, although slightly too spicy. want to do a bit more of that!
ok, some random tam trivia:
* love love loving my iphone still! game i play most is 'doodle jump'! anyone else play that? i like 'scramble' too, but it also gives me an inferiority complex with its; 'you have found [merely] 30 out of 3 million [really easy, you loser] words!' meugh.
* i've been useless at replying to everyone on blogs, emails, comments, twitter, fb; my apologies, i will also muster up the energy for that, i hope!
* been rewatching 'the lord of the rings', and have the following comments;
* i've developed a real addiction to nero's 'fruitboosters' (specifically the berry flavoured one).
and that was it for the tam trivia.
now, on to some art.
i was really inspired by this person's 'blob art': http://tinyurl.com/3jahqe - basically, the person puts some paint on to one page, closes the book, created blobs and then looked for obvious shapes/ patterns and then drew on top of the blobs. (check it out it's really cool). on my art journal course, we did the blob making, but i never thought about then drawing actual drawings on top while using the pre-created blob shapes! so, i did one today! :) lookit!
this was the before:
and this was after:
cool no? nowhere as 'good' as the person i was inspired by, but i enjoyed doing it very much, i liked creating nonsense creatures like the seasnake type thingie and the monster and the random faces and a hellboy/ dragon looking seahorsey! gonna do many more of these.
some more art:
2 new portraits:
detail from an art journal entry:
& new stuff in my etsy shop!
i'm selling 3 x A5 cardstock print sets for $15 + shipping of the following:
they can be hung up like little prints, or sent to friends and family as postcards.
to buy GO TO MY ETSY SHOP.
i also have a SPECIAL OFFER on; buy both my workshops for a REDUCED PRICE!
ok, i think that is it for a long, but informative and fun ;) tamisode.
hope everyone is well, forgive my scarce appearances and responses, i love you truly, you know that! ;)
it is i, lady buddha (or rather; lady kitchen god).
because i sit leaning back in those pictures, the stomach still doesn't look that big, so here is a picture of the stomach standing up!
i have been utterly exhausted with the energy levels of a doped up sloth! i sleep, sleep, sleep (sometimes 12 hours a day) and eat and sit and do little else than watch tv shows and make some art here and there. walking merely the smallest distances means i need yet another sleep and moving about/ around in bed is extremely cumbersome and rather hilarious.
so, needless to say; the baby is nearly ready to come out! on monday, i'll be 37 weeks, which means the baby will be full term. if he's born any day after monday he is not considered pre-term. yay. he could come any day now, although most first babies come after 40 weeks, so if that's the case, it's at least another 3 weeks to go.
i'm hoping he'll come a bit early (if he's ready for that), i like the idea he might be born on either the 7th, 8th or 9th of august, as his bday would then be: 07.08.09 or 08.08.09 or 09.08.09, i like auspicious number formations that way. ha ha. but any date and him being healthy and happy is fine by me, obviously.
i have another obstetrician appt tomorrow and they'll check if his head is engaging yet. i'm a bit worried, because if he's not lying head down, he might need to be moved manually which isn't a pleasant experience. been trying to do all sorts of exercises to get him in the correct position, but dunno what he's doing. my midwife said i have quite a lot of amniotic fluid which means he can more easily move about which at this point i don't really want him to do, just head down he should stay now to make labour most comfortable & shorter. oh well, we'll have to see tomorrow and decide from there on.
so, absolutely no energy for anything, but i still have a few art projects planned and i will muster up the energy! i'm hoping to do 2 more art vids for youtube before baby comes (1 ATC related, the other the house shrine) and i have a new piece of wood, we found on the streets i want to paint on. so, gonna try to do that.
also, though it's all just tired tired tired, i mustered up the energy to make indian food tonight! i hardly ever cook 'properly', i'm the kind of person that slaps a dish together in 10 minutes. i never work off recipes or whatever, but really wanted to try and do some proper indian food and it went well! andy liked it, me too, although slightly too spicy. want to do a bit more of that!
ok, some random tam trivia:
* love love loving my iphone still! game i play most is 'doodle jump'! anyone else play that? i like 'scramble' too, but it also gives me an inferiority complex with its; 'you have found [merely] 30 out of 3 million [really easy, you loser] words!' meugh.
* i've been useless at replying to everyone on blogs, emails, comments, twitter, fb; my apologies, i will also muster up the energy for that, i hope!
* been rewatching 'the lord of the rings', and have the following comments;
- aragorn, eowyn, gandalf and legolas are by far my fav characters.
- people really should've been nicer to gollum, another example how love & compassion could've overcome his own disturbed nature but no one really tried apart from frodo a little bit.
- one of the coolest scenes is when legolas swings sort of backwards onto a galloping horse in the 'two towers' when they are just about to start a battle with orcs on big hyena dogs.
- orcs are fucking scary motherfuckers.
- the battle at helm's deep is sort of hilarious in the sense that, there is sort of a funnel effect going on; the front orcs are battling the front of helm's deep, but a whole layer of thousands of orcs at the back can't quite yet get to helm's deep as the army is so huge and the front of helm's deep relatively small (funnel effect), and i always wonder what the 8000 orcs are doing who can't actually attack helm's deep yet, do they just chat about lunch or making bets, twiddling their thumbs?.
- quote gimli: "no one tosses a dwarf" very funny.
- ents are fucking annoying and hard to understand.
- samwise gamgee is lovely, but he should be nicer to gollum.
- i keep being confused by which of the two other hobbits is also in lost.
- denethor II (steward of gondor and asshole father to faramir) plays a much nicer character in 'fringe' as dr. walter bishop. imagine all the therapy faramir is gonna need!
- orcs are fucking scary motherfuckers.
- though i don't usually enjoy big battle scenes (they bore me to death in films such as alexander, troy etc), the battle at helm's deep was pretty interesting and impressive, also because it maintains some kind of humour.
- the music in all the 3 films is awesome.
* i've developed a real addiction to nero's 'fruitboosters' (specifically the berry flavoured one).
and that was it for the tam trivia.
now, on to some art.
i was really inspired by this person's 'blob art': http://tinyurl.com/3jahqe - basically, the person puts some paint on to one page, closes the book, created blobs and then looked for obvious shapes/ patterns and then drew on top of the blobs. (check it out it's really cool). on my art journal course, we did the blob making, but i never thought about then drawing actual drawings on top while using the pre-created blob shapes! so, i did one today! :) lookit!
this was the before:
and this was after:
cool no? nowhere as 'good' as the person i was inspired by, but i enjoyed doing it very much, i liked creating nonsense creatures like the seasnake type thingie and the monster and the random faces and a hellboy/ dragon looking seahorsey! gonna do many more of these.
some more art:
2 new portraits:
detail from an art journal entry:
& new stuff in my etsy shop!
i'm selling 3 x A5 cardstock print sets for $15 + shipping of the following:
they can be hung up like little prints, or sent to friends and family as postcards.
to buy GO TO MY ETSY SHOP.
i also have a SPECIAL OFFER on; buy both my workshops for a REDUCED PRICE!
ok, i think that is it for a long, but informative and fun ;) tamisode.
hope everyone is well, forgive my scarce appearances and responses, i love you truly, you know that! ;)
Wednesday, 22 July 2009
the thing that wakes up.
i love what adyashanti said here:
"the odd thing about spiritual awakening is; the thing that wakes up, is not the thing that's searching"
that's exactly how i think "enlightenment" is. this ego, this me, that searches isn't what it's all about at all, that bit isn't going to have a realisation, it's the "other" bit! :) i love how he said it so concisely! :) brings me much clarity.
oh shame, embedding is disabled! go here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29PDdi1cJAM
"the odd thing about spiritual awakening is; the thing that wakes up, is not the thing that's searching"
that's exactly how i think "enlightenment" is. this ego, this me, that searches isn't what it's all about at all, that bit isn't going to have a realisation, it's the "other" bit! :) i love how he said it so concisely! :) brings me much clarity.
oh shame, embedding is disabled! go here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29PDdi1cJAM
Tuesday, 21 July 2009
a me update
i was contemplating going to bed instead of writing an update, but i was feeling inspired and filled with love for people and wanted to write, to connect.
i don't have pics of the wedding thing just yet (the ones that were taken, let's just say; i ain't impressed with how i look but hey, i shall post them anyway, later) and i have no pics of my latest art journal entries either, yet, need to scan them still, so it's gonna be all text, apart from this picture:
which just made me smile so much. i've said it before, but i'll say it again; i ♥ lolcatz a lot a lot. :-)
i sit here with really tired eyes because i didn't sleep much last night. not because of 'the wedding', but because the baby was moving a lot less than he had in the week before and that can sometimes be a sign of something gone wrong. luckily my sturdy heartbeat monitor said all was fine, so i was semi reassured but i was still confused by the decreased sense of activity so i couldn't sleep very well.
consequently i was quite a bit spaced out when going to the town hall to say the vows. the ritual/ tradition, bemused me, yet unexpectedly moved andy. i have deeper underlying issues with the concept of marriage and the wording they use to 'bind' you. like; 'i promise', to me, that's a silly thing to say, 'i promise to love you' sounds hollow and empty to me, however, i WANT to love and cherish you and i do love and cherish feels completely different. 'promise' sounds like it's something you do because you should but you may not necessarily want to, while saying; 'i want to', sounds authentic to me! (should've written our own vows after all oh well).
anyhoo, we did it, and i'm happy we did it, i just get triggered around traditional/ ritual stuff, something around autonomy and authenticity for me! :)
afterwards we went to food for friends with the two witnesses (hugh & trish) and spent ages there, it was lovely.
as rho and alix have suggested i can now be addressed as: 'Lady (or "my Ladyship") Oddkidd' (andy's online screenname), alternatively; 'Mrs Mason', or simply; 'Yo Tam'. ;) (Empress or Goddess tam works too! ;).
i've entered into week 37 of pregnancy, that means 4 WEEKS left (if he decides to come on time), i'm incredibly excited! the nct (antenatal) classes are awesome, really clear about all the pros and cons of all the decisions you need to make. today they discussed being induced and that doesn't look like fun AT ALL.
i feel really prepared and not scared of any potential pain, just want all to go well for the baby and aim to work together with my body as much as possible. i sewed my big huge tent shirt together yesterday so that i have the option to feel as comfortable as possible (but i think i'll probably tear it off anyway). i might also use the birthing pool a bit to help with possible pain relief.
i've written our birth plan (really detailed) and a list for andy with stuff for him to do during labour. i don't think there isn't anything we haven't prepared for.
so yes, ready to welcome new baby into this crazy old world! :)
i've been very moved by some online activity and the connections made here, i just want to express my gratitude for that, at times, - it's probably hormones! (don't blame on the sunshine, don't blame on the moonlight, don't blame it on the good times, blame it on the HORMONES) - i go round all my sites, twitter, facebook, lj, ning etc and just observe all the buzzing of the people and i am overwhelmed by so much love and emotion. :-) and gratitude, just a lot of gratitude.
♥
i don't have pics of the wedding thing just yet (the ones that were taken, let's just say; i ain't impressed with how i look but hey, i shall post them anyway, later) and i have no pics of my latest art journal entries either, yet, need to scan them still, so it's gonna be all text, apart from this picture:
which just made me smile so much. i've said it before, but i'll say it again; i ♥ lolcatz a lot a lot. :-)
i sit here with really tired eyes because i didn't sleep much last night. not because of 'the wedding', but because the baby was moving a lot less than he had in the week before and that can sometimes be a sign of something gone wrong. luckily my sturdy heartbeat monitor said all was fine, so i was semi reassured but i was still confused by the decreased sense of activity so i couldn't sleep very well.
consequently i was quite a bit spaced out when going to the town hall to say the vows. the ritual/ tradition, bemused me, yet unexpectedly moved andy. i have deeper underlying issues with the concept of marriage and the wording they use to 'bind' you. like; 'i promise', to me, that's a silly thing to say, 'i promise to love you' sounds hollow and empty to me, however, i WANT to love and cherish you and i do love and cherish feels completely different. 'promise' sounds like it's something you do because you should but you may not necessarily want to, while saying; 'i want to', sounds authentic to me! (should've written our own vows after all oh well).
anyhoo, we did it, and i'm happy we did it, i just get triggered around traditional/ ritual stuff, something around autonomy and authenticity for me! :)
afterwards we went to food for friends with the two witnesses (hugh & trish) and spent ages there, it was lovely.
as rho and alix have suggested i can now be addressed as: 'Lady (or "my Ladyship") Oddkidd' (andy's online screenname), alternatively; 'Mrs Mason', or simply; 'Yo Tam'. ;) (Empress or Goddess tam works too! ;).
i've entered into week 37 of pregnancy, that means 4 WEEKS left (if he decides to come on time), i'm incredibly excited! the nct (antenatal) classes are awesome, really clear about all the pros and cons of all the decisions you need to make. today they discussed being induced and that doesn't look like fun AT ALL.
i feel really prepared and not scared of any potential pain, just want all to go well for the baby and aim to work together with my body as much as possible. i sewed my big huge tent shirt together yesterday so that i have the option to feel as comfortable as possible (but i think i'll probably tear it off anyway). i might also use the birthing pool a bit to help with possible pain relief.
i've written our birth plan (really detailed) and a list for andy with stuff for him to do during labour. i don't think there isn't anything we haven't prepared for.
so yes, ready to welcome new baby into this crazy old world! :)
i've been very moved by some online activity and the connections made here, i just want to express my gratitude for that, at times, - it's probably hormones! (don't blame on the sunshine, don't blame on the moonlight, don't blame it on the good times, blame it on the HORMONES) - i go round all my sites, twitter, facebook, lj, ning etc and just observe all the buzzing of the people and i am overwhelmed by so much love and emotion. :-) and gratitude, just a lot of gratitude.
♥
Thursday, 16 July 2009
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
wild geese
Wild Geese
by Mary Oliver
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
from Dream Work by Mary Oliver
published by Atlantic Monthly Press
© Mary Oliver
by Mary Oliver
You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.
from Dream Work by Mary Oliver
published by Atlantic Monthly Press
© Mary Oliver
Monday, 13 July 2009
awesome art journal available on DVD!
sooooooo, my AWESOME ART JOURNAL course is now finished and is
available on DVD YAY! :0)
*Awesome Art Journal*
Mixed Media Art Journal Workshop
Now Available on DVD!
Art Journals are magical places where all judgements fall away! Your Art Journal is a place where you can create without inhibitions or fear of 'doing it wrong'. Art Journals are not for making 'perfect' art (what is that anyway?), they are for soul expression, a space for you to be, to express, create, to heal, to laugh, to cry! This course will do just that; help you express your soul in creative, expressive and outrageous ways!
Student Feedback:
"This is a course that will help to ignite your journal creations through different and attractive techniques. Interspersed with some healing techniques that could be integrated, along with the techniques learnt, into your journaling by means of weekly exercises. Everything happens in a gentle and relaxing environment where you can get feedback and find even more inspiration through interaction with other participants."
~Tere Valenzuela, Mexico
What You're Buying
Please note: the DVD you are buying is a DATA DVD. The file format of the videos on the DVD is in .mov. This means you cannot watch the files on your TV unless your DVD player specifically plays the above mentioned file format. The files on the DVD can be played on PCs or MACs using either Quicktime (.mov files) or VLC Player.I strongly recommend Quicktime for .mov files though as the VLC player tends to distort the videos ever so slightly.
You get 1 DVD which contain 6 .mov files (about 7.5 hours of lessons in total) and 13 PDF files. A supply list and course outline is also included on the DVD in PDF format. The DVD case has a professionally printed sleeve covering it.
July, 2009
This course ran on my ning network from 8th June 2009 - 12th July 2009 for 56 students. As I am pregnant at the moment and won’t be able to run the course any time soon again I’ve decided to make the course available on DVD so that those who missed out can follow the course as well minus the interaction with myself and other students.
Technical requirements: the .mov files play best in the software program Quicktime. You can also play them in VLC player but I noticed that VLC distorts my videos slightly so I highly recommend playing them in Quicktime (this programme can be downloaded for free off the internet).
Course skill level: Beginner & Intermediate
The DVD contains 6 video files covering 5 weeks of mixed media art journal lessons. Pls note that I have NOT taken out little chats or comments which related to events or circumstances happening at the time.
On the disc you will find 13 PDFs that look at the methods and techniques that were covered in the videos and some of them list exercises and/or homework. In some weeks a healing theme is interwoven into the lesson.
Each video looks at two themes often covering several techniques to implement the theme into your art journal.
Course Outline
Student Feedback
(with permission)
"AWESOME!!!!!!!" - Klair Scattergood
"Just take it, dammit, (you will be glad you did)! ;D"
- Ursula Lengyel
"Nice course, especially for beginners. Tam is an excellent teacher. She is extremely patient and will take whatever time is necessary to be sure you understand what she is teaching."
- Susan Koopmans
"All and a very thorough walk through of most aspects of Art journaling, and in addition most of the techniques can also be used in paintings. The course guides you through enough techniques to keep you going for a long time. Willowing way of teaching is both fun and inspiring - so you better have your materials ready, because you will want to get started as soon as you here her first "Hallooooooo everyone" ;-)."
- Mette Engell
"Tam offers a solid course in art journaling, presented in a playful way that invites participation."
- Alix North
"It was AWESOME!!!! I highly recommend it to anyone who loves art & journaling!!"
-Debi Lowe
BUY NOW!
$50 + shipping
For more information on the course, pls DOWNLOAD THIS PDF
ADDITIONALLY! I ALSO DO A SPECIAL OFFER NOW!
buy both the world of whimsy course AND the awesome art journal course for
BUY NOW!
$85 + shipping
available on DVD YAY! :0)
*Awesome Art Journal*
Mixed Media Art Journal Workshop
Now Available on DVD!
Art Journals are magical places where all judgements fall away! Your Art Journal is a place where you can create without inhibitions or fear of 'doing it wrong'. Art Journals are not for making 'perfect' art (what is that anyway?), they are for soul expression, a space for you to be, to express, create, to heal, to laugh, to cry! This course will do just that; help you express your soul in creative, expressive and outrageous ways!
Student Feedback:
"This is a course that will help to ignite your journal creations through different and attractive techniques. Interspersed with some healing techniques that could be integrated, along with the techniques learnt, into your journaling by means of weekly exercises. Everything happens in a gentle and relaxing environment where you can get feedback and find even more inspiration through interaction with other participants."
~Tere Valenzuela, Mexico
What You're Buying
Please note: the DVD you are buying is a DATA DVD. The file format of the videos on the DVD is in .mov. This means you cannot watch the files on your TV unless your DVD player specifically plays the above mentioned file format. The files on the DVD can be played on PCs or MACs using either Quicktime (.mov files) or VLC Player.I strongly recommend Quicktime for .mov files though as the VLC player tends to distort the videos ever so slightly.
You get 1 DVD which contain 6 .mov files (about 7.5 hours of lessons in total) and 13 PDF files. A supply list and course outline is also included on the DVD in PDF format. The DVD case has a professionally printed sleeve covering it.
July, 2009
This course ran on my ning network from 8th June 2009 - 12th July 2009 for 56 students. As I am pregnant at the moment and won’t be able to run the course any time soon again I’ve decided to make the course available on DVD so that those who missed out can follow the course as well minus the interaction with myself and other students.
Technical requirements: the .mov files play best in the software program Quicktime. You can also play them in VLC player but I noticed that VLC distorts my videos slightly so I highly recommend playing them in Quicktime (this programme can be downloaded for free off the internet).
Course skill level: Beginner & Intermediate
The DVD contains 6 video files covering 5 weeks of mixed media art journal lessons. Pls note that I have NOT taken out little chats or comments which related to events or circumstances happening at the time.
On the disc you will find 13 PDFs that look at the methods and techniques that were covered in the videos and some of them list exercises and/or homework. In some weeks a healing theme is interwoven into the lesson.
Each video looks at two themes often covering several techniques to implement the theme into your art journal.
Student Feedback
(with permission)
"AWESOME!!!!!!!" - Klair Scattergood
"Just take it, dammit, (you will be glad you did)! ;D"
- Ursula Lengyel
"Nice course, especially for beginners. Tam is an excellent teacher. She is extremely patient and will take whatever time is necessary to be sure you understand what she is teaching."
- Susan Koopmans
"All and a very thorough walk through of most aspects of Art journaling, and in addition most of the techniques can also be used in paintings. The course guides you through enough techniques to keep you going for a long time. Willowing way of teaching is both fun and inspiring - so you better have your materials ready, because you will want to get started as soon as you here her first "Hallooooooo everyone" ;-)."
- Mette Engell
"Tam offers a solid course in art journaling, presented in a playful way that invites participation."
- Alix North
"It was AWESOME!!!! I highly recommend it to anyone who loves art & journaling!!"
-Debi Lowe
$50 + shipping
For more information on the course, pls DOWNLOAD THIS PDF
ADDITIONALLY! I ALSO DO A SPECIAL OFFER NOW!
buy both the world of whimsy course AND the awesome art journal course for
BUY NOW!
$85 + shipping
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